One of the most important lessons I have learned is to trust Jesus. I have learned to lean on God’s understanding rather than my own, but like most people I am not perfect. Sometimes, I act like a stubborn child and I love how the Lord reacts. God never corrects with shame, guilt, or condemnation. Instead, he corrects in a way that makes me feel more loved and cherished. He responds in a way that makes me want to do better next time. Let me give you a recent example of an experience I had with the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.
First, I was at work when I learned that we would be having the weekend off. God had already been telling me that I needed to rest but I, in my human thinking, had decided that I really needed to work the weekend to pay off some debt. Well, let me tell you; God was having none of that and orchestrated for me to have three full days and two nights off work. Before the time off came, the Holy Spirit lead me to read in the Bible the story of the mustard seed. What this says is that, though it is the smallest of seeds, when it grows up its branches are huge enough for the birds of the air to find rest in. It is a parable to illustrate how the smallest seed of truth in God’s word can become a protective place with God but to me at that time the Holy Spirit was telling me that the coming rest was from God. He strongly advised that I take the rest. He can be quite stubborn Himself, I assure you!
When I learned of the time off, I complained to a co-worker, “I can’t afford that!” I was basically grumbling. This was on a Monday. During the week, my work station was changed over to very heavy parts. After 3 days of that I was asked to work in a station where a male coworker had gone home sick. These parts were heavier, then on the last day I was asked to spend two hours working the heaviest parts in the shop. As I left the shop that Friday I felt an overwhelming sense of gratitude toward God for the time off. It was only then that I remembered what He had been telling me.
1. You need rest.
2. I will make the rest possible.
3. I know the end from the beginning. Trust me.
So, first the Father told me I needed rest. Then the Holy Spirit spoke to me and guided me in reading and understanding from God’s point of view the parable of the mustard seed and how it related to me. Finally, Jesus orchestrated the whole thing and had me praising God for His kindness the entire drive home. I was so happy to be going home for a few days off.
Now, it occurs to me that, my complaining to the coworker did not show my trust in God to the outside world. I am called to give face to Jesus. I am called to live above that of complaining and grumbling. I am called to say what I hear the Father say and do what I see the Father doing. It would have been better, instead of grumbling, to ask, “Jesus, what do you think about this?” and to seek an attitude of gratefulness from the beginning. The bible tells us to give thanks in all things. I am truly glad that I was taught this lesson. I don’t feel guilty for complaining and God does not hold it against me. Instead, I really understand now that when He wants me to rest it is for my own good.