Spoken

A Moment Can Change Everything or Nothing

You never know who your friends are until they know you. I mean, really, know you. Secrets are a dark place. It often takes great effort to keep them, especially if they are secrets of trauma, injustice, or hurt. We all have secrets. It is my fervent prayer that your secrets are only of good things but often that is not the case.

Sometimes those dark secrets bubble up in us until the words, we find, are on our lips seemingly of their own volition. It is so important to reveal these secrets in a safe place; a councelors office, or in the privacy of an intimate relationship, or with those you have confidence in and trust. There is occassion however, when the words come unbidden and you have to place your trust, however fragel, in the hands of those whom the truths of the darkness were revealed. It is at this time, that it is essential to not beat yourself up for speaking out. Whats done is done and there is no drawing back of words once spoken. This is how you will find out who your friends are. Some people will draw away, a natural response to not knowing how to respond. Some people will support you, pray for you, and reguard your words as bravery even if they came as a result of “word puke”. Those, the ones who do not abandon you, are to be called friend.

Healing of those dark places can come from this unintentional spilling, and from finding Jesus in the midst of those secrets. Secrets take on a life of their own within our psyche and our soul. They may start out as a ball of darkness that we just keep swallowing down. Each time we swallow the words, the ball becomes bigger and bigger. It becomes somewhat ravenous to be exposed, and will try to escape at any open oppertunity. However, exposing the secrets can sometimes cause more trauma if not handled in an appropriate manner by someone who knows how to bring Jesus into the situation, who knows how to bring thruth to where the lies are rooted.

In our secrets, the lies of the enemy just keep growing because we have given a foot hold. We may feel revulsion not only at the secret we are keeping but toward ourselves because of lies we believe about ourselves. Let me tell you right now, that anything negative you are feeling about yourself is a lie straight out of the pit of Hell, because God does not see you that way and God is Truth. Jesus can shine light where there was once only darkness. The chains that bind us can be broken and those secrets and lies, once Jesus is involved, can hold no power over us. Our power comes from the Lord Jesus! The word of God says explicitly, in 2nd Tim 1:7 For god has not given us a spirit of fear; but of power, love, and a sound mind. So anything that we feel about ourselves, and our secrets, that is anything but this, is a lie.

Were you hurt? Jesus was there and protected you because you are here reading this now. Were you abandoned? Jesus is there for you, He says, I will never leave you or forsake you. Were you neglected? Jesus is there to make whole what was broken.

No matter what you are going through right now, no matter what secrets you are keeping, Know this. You are the beloved of God. That is how He sees you. He is not looking at what is wrong with you because He only sees you through the eyes of Jesus. His beloved child. He cherishes you more than you ever dreamed possible. We are so loved. We are His beloved.

If you don’t know this loving God of whom I speak, contact me and let me introudce you. It is one thing you will never, ever regret.

Out of my own healing, I love each and every one of you. Be well Beloved, release the darkness and come into the light. There is healing. There is wholeness for I am not a sick person seeking wholeness but a whole person living in freedom.

From Complaint to Praise

Do everything without complaining or arguing
Do everything without complaining or arguing

One of the most important lessons I have learned is to trust Jesus. I have learned to lean on God’s understanding rather than my own, but like most people I am not perfect. Sometimes, I act like a stubborn child and I love how the Lord reacts. God never corrects with shame, guilt, or condemnation. Instead, he corrects in a way that makes me feel more loved and cherished. He responds in a way that makes me want to do better next time. Let me give you a recent example of an experience I had with the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.

First, I was at work when I learned that we would be having the weekend off. God had already been telling me that I needed to rest but I, in my human thinking, had decided that I really needed to work the weekend to pay off some debt. Well, let me tell you; God was having none of that and orchestrated for me to have three full days and two nights off work. Before the time off came, the Holy Spirit lead me to read in the Bible the story of the mustard seed. What this says is that, though it is the smallest of seeds, when it grows up its branches are huge enough for the birds of the air to find rest in. It is a parable to illustrate how the smallest seed of truth in God’s word can become a protective place with God but to me at that time the Holy Spirit was telling me that the coming rest was from God. He strongly advised that I take the rest. He can be quite stubborn Himself, I assure you!

When I learned of the time off, I complained to a co-worker, “I can’t afford that!” I was basically grumbling. This was on a Monday. During the week, my work station was changed over to very heavy parts. After 3 days of that I was asked to work in a station where a male coworker had gone home sick. These parts were heavier, then on the last day I was asked to spend two hours working the heaviest parts in the shop. As I left the shop that Friday I felt an overwhelming sense of gratitude toward God for the time off. It was only then that I remembered what He had been telling me.

1. You need rest.

2. I will make the rest possible.

3. I know the end from the beginning. Trust me.

So, first the Father told me I needed rest. Then the Holy Spirit spoke to me and guided me in reading and understanding from God’s point of view the parable of the mustard seed and how it related to me. Finally, Jesus orchestrated the whole thing and had me praising God for His kindness the entire drive home.  I was so happy to be going home for a few days off.

Now, it occurs to me that, my complaining to the coworker did not show my trust in God to the outside world. I am called to give face to Jesus. I am called to live above that of complaining and grumbling. I am called to say what I hear the Father say and do what I see the Father doing. It would have been better, instead of grumbling, to ask, “Jesus, what do you think about this?” and to seek an attitude of gratefulness from the beginning. The bible tells us to give thanks in all things. I am truly glad that I was taught this lesson. I don’t feel guilty for complaining and God does not hold it against me. Instead, I really understand now that when He wants me to rest it is for my own good.